Define me of who I am who makes the decision?
Is it me you or them...
made the wrong move
rest assured it'll be followed by echoes of
Dayymm!!

Define me of who I am
The average joe or the complicated man..
Trying to be strong and independent..
got pointed out as being a loner

Define me of who I am.
Got ambitions to go far.
and voices speaks out
"you aint nothing but talk
so far...."

Define me of who I am?
Define your self
And tell me...
How about you
Do you have your own plans???

I'm still here standing tall
even if my head is looking down.
not being ashamed
but.. instead smiling
Thinking hey..

"you were that kid i used to know from way back then in my home town"

M.A

Adam sandler...

Ulitmate update ... :) dont take it seriously (conversation with my head)

Ermm three days of doing nothing will be pure bliss last time i had free time i got to watch some movies... one which really got to me...was The Soloist a truly wonderful movie...






Now i finally go to watch fighting with Channing Tatum as the main character and featuring such actors the likes of the legendary Terrence Howard....






well back to my life again.. the past few days i've been busting my ass trying to work on my first supplement assignment and had learned a lot of things and yea not to forget this is the first time in my life ive to work in the month of Ramadhan and it's really weird the work condition is kinda different even though nothing's change and talking about work the stress is really getting to me normally i cope by just accepting that i was the one that wanted to work as what i am today but sometimes i cant bare it.. it's not the fact that it's time consuming but rather life consuming in the sense i have no time for my self and the more i try to become independent the more time i have for others... that close someone had help me a lot in my time of weakness... but i dunno i feel kind of selfish sometimes... I learned some friends are always there for you and some dont appreciate you ... the only friends i have are the one that are close to me but in time i'll bet they'll linger away i gueess death is not the only thing that can take away a person...








I feel like i have a love hate relationship with the job for one thing it makes me feel needed and wanted on another it's too life consuming but when i finally have a day off and back to my normal life i feel unappreciated and just because im different in a way im labelled as a loser...a geek a dweeb I just feel lonely....

The more i expand my talent the more i feel used... :( well what tommorow brings i dunno the only thing i know i need to get a life or at least make something certain with that someone ive been coping being alone for a long time i just hope that someone knows that i truly truly meant what i said before... and yeah pay is not out again inconsistensy exist in my life hahahah

From nini function

You know why sometimes you thing im deep Eff you!!! try being no wanted and feel alone for most of your life and not having people understand you and the fact you have to wear a mask just to make that person feel in control im effing done making ppl happy!!! Im just trying to find my own life and not just ppl clinging on to me because i have something that they want im not a freaking tv for your enjoyment i am not a freaking emotional sponge i am not a punching bag I am me!! woah nice having a blog don't take it the wrong way i just needed to vent out.. feels good ahhh... most of the things i poit out are not exclusive to me it's just human nature... :)

I guess maybe someday i'll be happy... someday but as for now im just coping

STDBW MJ tribute...

Adib Noor


Bandar Seri Begawan

Sunday August 16,2009 was a day to remember for most of the people who gathered around to see the awesome spectacle of more than fifty people dancing to Michael Jackson's ``Beat It'', ``Thriller'' and ``Smooth Criminal'' in front of Chill, Gadong. The energetic wonderfully choreographed spectacle was brought to the public thanks to the highly unpredictable group of youth known only as``SomethingToDoWithBeans''(STDBW) in their tribute to the King of Pop.


It was a normal Sunday afternoon in Gadong, young people hanging around with friends when suddenly the familiar echoes of foot steps from Michael Jackson's smooth criminal hung in the air followed by the familiar guitar sounds of Eddie Van Halen in Michael Jackson's beat it was played and two random youths suddenly got up and mimic the dance moves of the music icon and followed by many others setting of a snowball effect as people gathered around and took pictures as well as videos of the unexpected almost musical like performance. The dance ended with the now legendary dance moves of Michael Jackson's thriller and in just three minutes it was over but the spectacle would undoubtedly last forever.

From mj

From mj

From mj

From mj

The tribute was made possible by the members of STDBW as well as more than 50 volunteers who participated in the dance sequence as well as three dedicated choreographers . Zatty Joanda one of the admins of STDBW and one of the choreographers for the spectacle stated that it took ten hours to teach and for the participants to learn the dance moves and it was surprisingly not as difficult as she thought as most of the participants had the dedication, the team work and most importantly had fun putting it all to work.


Ben Stone one of the founding fathers of STDBW said `` The whole thing is to pay tribute to the King of Pop and how his influence in music as well as dance have touched the world including us in Brunei'' He further added that it also gave exposure to the dancing scene here in Brunei Darussalam as most of the volunteers are members of different dance group in the sultanate and took the chance to pay tribute to Michael Jackson who as most people would agree influence the dance moves of today.

From mj

What's to come next from this innovative and unpredictable group of people?? who knows for updates and the groups past exploits those interested may take a look at their fan page by just searching ``SomethingToDoWithBeans'' on the popular social networking site Facebook .

Listen...

"We've had such a great time
In these past two months
I never laughed so much
In my life
It's been all about us
Since that time we had
That intimate talk
Suddenly your actin' strange
Plus your conversation
Just upped and changed
Is it because your afraid
What you feelin' for me
Is the beginning of a
New heart break?"....

Hmmm..

hmmmm....???

I dont know..po

Ive come to put my self in a difficult situation..
not by chance, coincidence or fate..
but none the less a situation..

The more it sinks in the more complicated it gets..
If I choose to let it be..
I don't know how long it will last
The closer i get the longer it sinks in..
A win-loss hidden in a win-win..

will last Forever i don' know..
will I let it be?? i don't Know..
Questions questions questions..
Answers??... i ask my self a question..
Have i got them i don't know..

Effing Bed!!!

Oh.. effing bed of mine.. why did you have to crumble..
You were the one I look forward to after a day of work..
No longer will I slumber upon you oh majestic lumber..

I used to remember waking up brightly the next day..
Now I look at you and i got nothing nice to say..
All I got to remember from you now is ouch..ahh.. and oww..
the pain you left upon me the next day..

For four days.. I hope I can catch up on my sleep..
alas it is not meant to be..
Curse you oh effing bed.. If you were alive
I wish you were dead...

:)

Car for Sale

???

Patience with no bounds even if it hurts..
Each Hi! each smile made.. etching a scratch..
The longer it went on the harder it gets..

An ultimatum is what i seek but my mouth opens but it's hard to speak..
High an mighty like oaks in the forests..
under the ground a soul is trapped in the maze of the roots..
As strong and mighty as it is, just one mistake.. it will all disintegrate
and all that has been created lost in the abyss..
should one take a risk such as this


A better half of what is me
which i feel is meant to be..
isn't always the way it seems
so is it still meant to be??...

Heyy.. i would...

Resimay


To hoom it mei kansern,

I waunt to aply for the job what I saw in the

paper.

I cant taip realee quik wit one finggar and do

sum a counting..

I think I am good on the phone and I no I am

a pepole person, Pepole really seam to

respond to me well. Certain women and all

the menn.

I no my spelling is not to good but find that I

offen can get a job thru my persinalety.

My salerery is open so we can diskas wat

you want to pay me and wat you think that I

am wort,

I can start emeditely. Thank you in advanse

fore yore anser.

Hopfuly yore best aplicant so farr.

Sinseerly,

lotty

PS : Because my resimay is a bit short -

below is a pickture of me.

From FB upload

Employer's response:

Dear Lotty ,

It's OK honey, we've got spell checker.

See you Monday....

Ambigious

From Shots

Contempt to accept the facts in certain situations
what it means to be yourself what it means to be set aside for others to shine
To act as shadows while others rise up and one feels contempt staring from down bellow..

It is not and easy task but easily overlooked
tis not the rewards tis not the feeling of satisfaction
But the right thing to do in certain situations..

Live life as it is...
without regard but with meaning..
take things as it is..
simplistic as it can be

Smile when you can.. Love if you can.
Only question if you have to..
if answers you seek it all depends on you..

A bit of truth..

Tharwana and me hangging out

A few months back i went to the office and after a few minutes there a colleague of mine looked surprise that I was at the office and it turned out IT WAS MY DAY OFF!!! Typical... but the day turned out great since it was spontaneous good things seems to happen if it's unplanned.. well here's a few pictures of me spending time with one amazing always unpredictable and always fun to mess around and hang with Tharwana~

From Family

From Family

From Family

From Family

cheers :)

Arsyad

 
Guess who i met at nini boy... this lil boy right here....
 
 

He's all grown up ...

From Family

weekend

Been a great couple of days.. spent time with the family and reconnect with some friends.. Tis was three days of good wonderful memories... Here's a few shots to act as visual aids of the last couple of days...













































Till next time...

Listen...

Jigga Man took the stage and held the mic and took control of the crowd..



The power of an MC he took the stage and made it his own taking it as a chance to spit out some social commentaries and people listened no crap about blings how many girls he screwd just him and his thoughts and the crowd? attention fixed on Jigga Man..

Will Update Soon..

Havent getting any response on what you guys and gals want to see on the blog..

I'm open to opinions.. so leave comments or feedback either in the c box or bellow

in the meantime i'll try to post up more interesting random stuffs or ramblings just to keep the blog going ayte peace out..

R.I.P

Born To Amuse,
To Inspire,
To Delight
Here One Day
Gone One Night

- Michael Jackson

Amazing...

Been trying to find this one for a while now...

Smile?!!

Back when Music meant something more..

Sakai

Hadnt had time to check out the Bt E-paper but when i did whoa its so freakin cool it's like a virtual news paper hahahahah i can actually fold it and go through the pages like a normal paper but it's totally virtual ahha sakai ku eh...

Here's the link if you guys and gals want to check it out out of curiousity if you do you'll get what i mean..

http://www.bruneitimes.com.bn/e-paper/index.html

There's no vaccine Eugene..

Look what i stumbled upon on youtube...

Hati Suci mu ingin ku milikki HAAAAAAAAAAA!! hahahahahaah Lol My man!!



Yeahhh Boyyyyy!!!!!!!!

The difference between D back then and Now and why Jordan is considered as the greatest player in the NBA..

Michael Jackson Reportedly Will Be Buried in Muslim Traditions

Michael Jackson's family reportedly is considering to have a traditional Muslim burial for the late music performer.


A source close to the Jacksons has exclusively revealed to X17 Online that family will likely have a traditional Muslim burial for late Michael Jackson. "The family is considering following the Muslim burial traditions because they believe Michael would have wanted to be laid to rest in keeping with his new-found religious beliefs," says the source.

"Michael's brother Jermaine is educating the family as to the special rites because he feels it's important to bury his brother according to the Muslim way," adds the source. Despite earlier reports that both public and private memorial services for the late music performer have been set to be held this week, there has been no official confirmation just yet from Michael's family on the location where his body will be laid to rest.




Michael Jackson was reported converting to Islam in late 2008, years after expressing his interest to join the faith. He later on changed his name into "Mikaeel", which was meant as a reference to the name of one of Allah's angels.

In Muslim burial, per X17 Online, someone's body "has to be cleaned, but ideally not embalmed, and wrapped in a white sheet, and it must be buried facing Mecca. The Koran also dictates that the body be buried as close to the place of death and as soon after death as possible. There should be no tombstone near the grave."


Taken from www.aceshowbiz.com

Real Mc

Jay-Z could just feel the music and spit out a verse.. His choice of music seems to escalate from his first album to the next.. from my interpretation of this video he's trying to differentiate his style to the other styles which seems to be "pop"ping out to day.. "

"A true MC could just grab a mic and control the crowd" - KRS One

Art...

Art is not just a drawing but part of who an artist is


ADIB NOOR
BANDAR SERI BEGAWAN
Thursday, July 2, 2009



THE recent art exhibition organised by G4S at the Sheraton Hotel gave a glimpse of the world which many have not known existed.

The artworks displayed were magnificent but what it represented held greater impact. Ideas, emotions and social criticisms can be seen reflected in the various canvas, frames and sculptures.

General manager Ambrose Nathan of G4S, the company organising the exhibition, said: "Art can be a foundation in developing an individual's identity which can contribute to an individual's emotional development."

The art group consisted of two teachers, one Fine Arts graduate, and five IB Visual Art graduates.



IB Visual Art graduate Mark Chong said that his work was a reflection of his personality.

He added: "My artworks are often blunt and naturally convey an atmosphere of melancholy. I've taken influences from pop culture and the era that I live in; from the grim, foreboding atmospheres of horror films to the narrative and compelling stories of contemporary novels and comics."



He added: "The works are not only a chronicle of the rocky road taken from teenage to adulthood but also an insight into personal fears unbounded by age, class or race."

Adam Hanif was one who was not bounded by the limit of his abilities.

He said: "The artworks that I've done during my years in the International Baccalaureate course have been a journey based around my personality, lifestyle, events and influences that affected me in changes; a time of self discovery as it synchronises with my maturing age. By using photography as my most skilled medium, I am able to convey my perceptions of anything I encounter."

Ayeshah Ahmad's passion and belief for art helped her greatly in exploring and portraying her expressions, while taking a look at society as well as her inner self.

"Over the 18 months of doing the International Baccalaureate course, I have come to develop artworks mostly involving people around me and the different ways that they are perceived."



Art does not limit itself to capturing beauty; it is also about personal experiences and accounts of the artists themselves. Artist Isa chose to portray his emotions in the form of a sculpture personifying the negatives found in his life and displaying it for all to see.

Others, such as Khalisa Ahmad, chose to portray the subtle beauties that no one would ever notice with the naked eye. Her works of floral sketches is unique with detailed precision of intricate lines giving more depth and elegance in what people would normally see as a simple flower.



Jason Chung is an art teacher who graduated from the Royal Melbourne Institute of Technology (RMIT) with a degree in art (fashion).

The former St Michael School student said that his passion for designing never ceased throughout his time managing his family's business. He has now found a way to express his love for art through imparting knowledge and experience as an art teacher.

The artwork he displayed at the exhibition showed his passion for fashion and love for art merged as one.

Ben Peacocke an art teacher for nine years in the Sultanate with a degree in Art Education had messages in his work, such as "A place in the sun", "But are you happy?" and "Primate" — all addressing the greed many have to make and spend money.

The "9 faces of heaven" is simply a celebration of nine Year 11 ISB girls that he had taught for the past five years and who reminded him of why he enjoyed teaching.

Clearly, art is not just a drawing, a picture or even a slab of material. It is part of who the artist is.







(Text taken from the Brunei Times website http://www.bt.com.bn/en)

Masks....

Let's see how this goes.. with the current rise and threat of th H1N1 virus now in Brunei are we going to see people wearing these protective masks??

The answer would most probbly be yes but the real question is will it really help or is it just for show?

As i know that i am and probably most of the people here in Brunei are creatures of habits.



As seen above buying food expose to the open air that we are so afraid of so what's the point?

Even we do wear mask it'll just be another fad.. (reason here-->)especially if it is made compulsory in schools which is a highly splendid idea.. but if we don't change our habits and really follow the steps and precautions given to us by the MOH

Wearing a mask just wont cut it...




Especially if we still cant refrain ourselves from attending certain events and disregard certain procedures such as the newly introduced self quarantine.

I will end this post with a cliche' it is still significant


"We could only help to make a change If we change ourselves.."




(I based my arguments on general knowledge and i would like to state this is my own personal views and indeed have no intention in criticising any certain party as clearly stated in the contents above i myself have not taken any extra precautions as i was the one taking the pictures thus contradiciting with my own views that is why it will be labelled under ramblings)