Adam sandler...

Ulitmate update ... :) dont take it seriously (conversation with my head)

Ermm three days of doing nothing will be pure bliss last time i had free time i got to watch some movies... one which really got to me...was The Soloist a truly wonderful movie...






Now i finally go to watch fighting with Channing Tatum as the main character and featuring such actors the likes of the legendary Terrence Howard....






well back to my life again.. the past few days i've been busting my ass trying to work on my first supplement assignment and had learned a lot of things and yea not to forget this is the first time in my life ive to work in the month of Ramadhan and it's really weird the work condition is kinda different even though nothing's change and talking about work the stress is really getting to me normally i cope by just accepting that i was the one that wanted to work as what i am today but sometimes i cant bare it.. it's not the fact that it's time consuming but rather life consuming in the sense i have no time for my self and the more i try to become independent the more time i have for others... that close someone had help me a lot in my time of weakness... but i dunno i feel kind of selfish sometimes... I learned some friends are always there for you and some dont appreciate you ... the only friends i have are the one that are close to me but in time i'll bet they'll linger away i gueess death is not the only thing that can take away a person...








I feel like i have a love hate relationship with the job for one thing it makes me feel needed and wanted on another it's too life consuming but when i finally have a day off and back to my normal life i feel unappreciated and just because im different in a way im labelled as a loser...a geek a dweeb I just feel lonely....

The more i expand my talent the more i feel used... :( well what tommorow brings i dunno the only thing i know i need to get a life or at least make something certain with that someone ive been coping being alone for a long time i just hope that someone knows that i truly truly meant what i said before... and yeah pay is not out again inconsistensy exist in my life hahahah

From nini function

You know why sometimes you thing im deep Eff you!!! try being no wanted and feel alone for most of your life and not having people understand you and the fact you have to wear a mask just to make that person feel in control im effing done making ppl happy!!! Im just trying to find my own life and not just ppl clinging on to me because i have something that they want im not a freaking tv for your enjoyment i am not a freaking emotional sponge i am not a punching bag I am me!! woah nice having a blog don't take it the wrong way i just needed to vent out.. feels good ahhh... most of the things i poit out are not exclusive to me it's just human nature... :)

I guess maybe someday i'll be happy... someday but as for now im just coping

STDBW MJ tribute...

Adib Noor


Bandar Seri Begawan

Sunday August 16,2009 was a day to remember for most of the people who gathered around to see the awesome spectacle of more than fifty people dancing to Michael Jackson's ``Beat It'', ``Thriller'' and ``Smooth Criminal'' in front of Chill, Gadong. The energetic wonderfully choreographed spectacle was brought to the public thanks to the highly unpredictable group of youth known only as``SomethingToDoWithBeans''(STDBW) in their tribute to the King of Pop.


It was a normal Sunday afternoon in Gadong, young people hanging around with friends when suddenly the familiar echoes of foot steps from Michael Jackson's smooth criminal hung in the air followed by the familiar guitar sounds of Eddie Van Halen in Michael Jackson's beat it was played and two random youths suddenly got up and mimic the dance moves of the music icon and followed by many others setting of a snowball effect as people gathered around and took pictures as well as videos of the unexpected almost musical like performance. The dance ended with the now legendary dance moves of Michael Jackson's thriller and in just three minutes it was over but the spectacle would undoubtedly last forever.

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The tribute was made possible by the members of STDBW as well as more than 50 volunteers who participated in the dance sequence as well as three dedicated choreographers . Zatty Joanda one of the admins of STDBW and one of the choreographers for the spectacle stated that it took ten hours to teach and for the participants to learn the dance moves and it was surprisingly not as difficult as she thought as most of the participants had the dedication, the team work and most importantly had fun putting it all to work.


Ben Stone one of the founding fathers of STDBW said `` The whole thing is to pay tribute to the King of Pop and how his influence in music as well as dance have touched the world including us in Brunei'' He further added that it also gave exposure to the dancing scene here in Brunei Darussalam as most of the volunteers are members of different dance group in the sultanate and took the chance to pay tribute to Michael Jackson who as most people would agree influence the dance moves of today.

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What's to come next from this innovative and unpredictable group of people?? who knows for updates and the groups past exploits those interested may take a look at their fan page by just searching ``SomethingToDoWithBeans'' on the popular social networking site Facebook .

Listen...

"We've had such a great time
In these past two months
I never laughed so much
In my life
It's been all about us
Since that time we had
That intimate talk
Suddenly your actin' strange
Plus your conversation
Just upped and changed
Is it because your afraid
What you feelin' for me
Is the beginning of a
New heart break?"....

Hmmm..

hmmmm....???

I dont know..po

Ive come to put my self in a difficult situation..
not by chance, coincidence or fate..
but none the less a situation..

The more it sinks in the more complicated it gets..
If I choose to let it be..
I don't know how long it will last
The closer i get the longer it sinks in..
A win-loss hidden in a win-win..

will last Forever i don' know..
will I let it be?? i don't Know..
Questions questions questions..
Answers??... i ask my self a question..
Have i got them i don't know..

Effing Bed!!!

Oh.. effing bed of mine.. why did you have to crumble..
You were the one I look forward to after a day of work..
No longer will I slumber upon you oh majestic lumber..

I used to remember waking up brightly the next day..
Now I look at you and i got nothing nice to say..
All I got to remember from you now is ouch..ahh.. and oww..
the pain you left upon me the next day..

For four days.. I hope I can catch up on my sleep..
alas it is not meant to be..
Curse you oh effing bed.. If you were alive
I wish you were dead...

:)

Car for Sale

???

Patience with no bounds even if it hurts..
Each Hi! each smile made.. etching a scratch..
The longer it went on the harder it gets..

An ultimatum is what i seek but my mouth opens but it's hard to speak..
High an mighty like oaks in the forests..
under the ground a soul is trapped in the maze of the roots..
As strong and mighty as it is, just one mistake.. it will all disintegrate
and all that has been created lost in the abyss..
should one take a risk such as this


A better half of what is me
which i feel is meant to be..
isn't always the way it seems
so is it still meant to be??...

Heyy.. i would...

Resimay


To hoom it mei kansern,

I waunt to aply for the job what I saw in the

paper.

I cant taip realee quik wit one finggar and do

sum a counting..

I think I am good on the phone and I no I am

a pepole person, Pepole really seam to

respond to me well. Certain women and all

the menn.

I no my spelling is not to good but find that I

offen can get a job thru my persinalety.

My salerery is open so we can diskas wat

you want to pay me and wat you think that I

am wort,

I can start emeditely. Thank you in advanse

fore yore anser.

Hopfuly yore best aplicant so farr.

Sinseerly,

lotty

PS : Because my resimay is a bit short -

below is a pickture of me.

From FB upload

Employer's response:

Dear Lotty ,

It's OK honey, we've got spell checker.

See you Monday....

Ambigious

From Shots

Contempt to accept the facts in certain situations
what it means to be yourself what it means to be set aside for others to shine
To act as shadows while others rise up and one feels contempt staring from down bellow..

It is not and easy task but easily overlooked
tis not the rewards tis not the feeling of satisfaction
But the right thing to do in certain situations..

Live life as it is...
without regard but with meaning..
take things as it is..
simplistic as it can be

Smile when you can.. Love if you can.
Only question if you have to..
if answers you seek it all depends on you..